yung feeling na gusto mo pa bumalik , ung tinitiis mo sya . ung tinitiis mo ung nararamdaman mo .
it really makes me cry hard again after this convo :(
namimissko na sya sobra :( pero naicip ko na mas maganda nadin ung ganto .. ung malaya sya malaya din ako .. nasakit para sakin .. hai .bigat sa pkramdam . pgnaiicip ko kse unng feeling na kame pa ,ung feeling na mabigat maraming sama ng loob ung laging ngaaway , :( parang auko na ulit maramdaman un .. ang sakit :( indi ako makakain ng maaus . di ako makatulog sa gabe . :((
Dear Ralph ,
I am writing to say goodbye. Goodbye for now, not for forever. I am fairly sure our paths will continue to meet. Maybe someday I’ll be more mature and better prepared for whatever comes my way, but I cannot anymore handle the pain you have unknowingly caused me these past few days.
Don’t get me wrong. You have made me very happy just by sharing yourself and your life with me. The memories will stay in my heart forever. From the time we first started going out until now, you have unfailingly shown me how it is to be really cared for and cherished. At the same time you have managed to keep my feet on the ground, always reminding me that my life is my own and no one else’s. I thank you for that. You taught me how fully comprehend what real love is like without even telling me you loved me. Just by showing me in your own way, you made me see how two incompatible persons can actually become real friends and true partners.
We have laughed together. Whenever I needed your comfort and strength, your level-headedness and rationality, you were always there for me. Our relationship has gone through a lot of things ranging from the serious to stupid and we were able to weather the storms together, you and I mainly because we knew how to properly steer the relationship back to its proper course.I will miss you. I will miss you very, very, very much. But contrary to what I used to believe, I’m not as tough as I thought I would be.
I do not want to do this-but I must. I know I’ll be hurting myself more by saying goodbye to you now, but I am unable to continue as if things haven’t changed.
I love you so much it hurts to say goodbye.You will forever be a part of my life, thank you for making me a part of yours. I will always remember you and the past months with a smile and with wistfulness for being the one responsible for throwing it all away… but I have to go now. I am afraid that if I stay, something will be destroyed—either be part of you, a part of me, or the relationship itself.
I know this is not the end of everything. It is actually a new beginning, hopefully of a better, more beautiful friendship. But I have to do this, to say goodbye to you properly. I need closure to move on. And I realize I have to move on.
I cannot hold on to something I don’t believe in anymore. I would have been really nice to grow old with you…to laugh with you while reminiscing about the days that have passed…to share with you my whole life, and I would share with you yours…but I guess now is not right time for us, or maybe we’re just not meant to be really together, now or forever, I don’t really know. You deserve someone who will fully understand your needs and your personality, I guess I deserve someone who will love me like you have done…it’s painful to say goodbye but even more painful to stay. Please understand that I have to do this somehow.
Love you very, very much. I don’t want to leave just yet, but if I don’t do it now, I know I will never be strong enough to ever do it at all. Thank you very much for always being there for me when I needed you most. Thank you for sharing yourself with me.
In fact, my life will never be the same without you.
You have been the love of my life without me expecting it. Maybe when our paths meet again, we would both be ready for whatever it is that we were really meant to be…friends, lovers,…we’ll see….only time will tell……
Goodluck and God Bless..
today . nakapgdecide na kong mkiapg hiwalay sa 3yrs and 4 months kong bf . masakit .sobra. eto nalang kse ung naicip kng paraan sa lahat.. ung bitawan nlng sya . ung ako nalang ung bummitaw .ung sakin nlng mismo manggaling ung salitang ”goodbye at space .” andami ng nagbago samen . hai .wala na ung thrill . ramdam na ramdam ko .na nanlalamig na ysa .. khit ndi say sabhin andami dami ng ngbago saming dalawa. parang sasabog na ung puso ko sa pgtago ng sama ng loob ko .:( . sobrang sakit pla ng gnun .. feeling ko din ndi nako deserving para sknya // madami nkong ngwang mali sa knya. ndi lng naman sya ang my probela dito eh .. ako din naman cguro . sa kabila ng lahat ng mga nagwa ko saknya noon at ngayon nanddto pdin sya khit gnyan ung pnapkita nya sakin , nanjan pdin sya. feeling ko ndi nako deserving para saknya .. andami ko ng ngawa sobra .. marami ko ndin beses nsabe tong word na ”maghiwalay na kame ” pro kahit isa wala akong napanindgan doon .. nakipaghiwalay ako ndi dahil sa mali sya . kundi dahil mali ako .. hndi ko maintindhan ung sarili ko :( .. saan ba tlga ako papunta ? tama ba otng gngwa ko ? tama ba ung desisyon ko ..? .. ang skait sakit .. feeling ko ngiisa ako .. ndi ako msaya . :( alam ko naman kung bakit sya ngbago dahil un sakin .dahil un sa mga nagwa ko .. gnwa kong manahimik sa kbla ng mga pinapramdam nya pro eto pdin ako ndi ko padin nkayanan .. ndi konapanidgan ung salitang ipaglalaban ko sya .. ng gulo gulo ng isip ko . ..
ngaun ung gusto ko lumayo saknya .. unghanapin ko ung sarili ko ..
fyck.. eto na tlga totoo na tlga to .. masakit sobra .
all i want,
Is to travel around the world,
eat the best food out there.
See the views, meet new people,
take photos of places.
New York, Paris, Barcelona,
London, Tokyo, Australia, Malaysia
You name it.
To wake up somewhere new.
To get lost, and ask for directions.
Have a book of translations.
And it would be nice to share it
with someone, too.
I saw that you were perfect and so I loved you. Then I saw that you were not perfect and I loved you even more.
Arguing should never be about who’s going to win and who’s going to lose.
Focus your effort on solving the problem, not proving the other one wrong. That way you will get peace and you will be cooperating even when having issues.
Admit mistakes, apologize and move on for a solution. Nobody’s perfect but we all learn and improve.